heartbroken

It's been 6 weeks since momma passed away, I miss her so much. If you hadn't known until now, please don't say "it's ok", because it's not. Nevertheless I would still like to thank everyone who encouraged and supported me and my family during our bereavement. How are we getting on? It's not the same without her here.

Papa woke me up frantically at 5am and once I grasped what was happening, I held her and said, "Ho Diwei is coming back in 2 days. Aren't you going to watch me get married?" Last week when I was walking along the corridor in school, I suddenly realised she's not going to be at my graduation either.

I love her so much. She took good care of the family and always made sure there was food on the table when we're home. Every morning I would go to her room to greet her, and remind her to eat and rest well before I was off to work. Out of habit I would still walk to her room in the morning, and would be heartbroken when I realised that she's not there anymore.

I can't accept that momma has left us so early. It pains me knowing she won't have the chance to hold her grandchild nor travel the world with dad.

So many thoughts running through my head now. Was she proud of me? Will I be able to take care of my family without her guidance?

I miss her so much